It's like you open a box, expecting something really wonderful, only to find it empty. Bare. it's not disappointment. It's just the emptiness, now you dunno what to expect anymore. Whether it's possible to expect anything. And you dunno if it's right to wait. Good way to describe my life. Ironically, you expect surprises to spring up to brighten up your life. I think sometimes, the more you wish for something (anything) to happen, the more it won't. Sigh. When is something right anyway? When it does not affect anyone else (3rd parties) negatively? Or should you consider yourself first? My posts are really... lousy. Hmm, at the bottom of my inspiration pit alr.

Ages since i've been here. I like how remote this is, yet i'm still able to rant. Actually there isn't much going on and i don't have the right words to do so anyway. Must stop procrastinating! I keep putting off sorting out the holiday hw to tomorrow. I've lost count of the no. of tomorrows. Maybe i should do something this holiday to change myself hahaha. I'm gonna be a lady! Hahaha jk, that's still a possibility though. Thankfully no one will see this.

aha i got in with just one try, i still rmb my username and password! :) anyway, it's been ages since i'm here. this always feels like some hole for me to retreat into whenever i want. been slightly more productive today (in terms of hw and rc heeee). finished 1 chem paper, and the 3 other sets of mcqs. i didnt know mcqs can be so toiling. or maybe just cos it's chem. it's especially annoying when you dun really like something yet you have to force yourself to do moderately well in it cos it's impt. worst thing is chem is like, the master of all sciences or smth. without it, you're gone gone gone gone...~ at least it seems so to me. unless you pursue something else like the arts.... which i can't do any better in. perhaps worst. sudden inspirations to type a few lines of melancholy is just natural, doesnt last, and never seems to come in handy during exams.

i realised, how much education has done to me. note, "to" not "for". well, "for", we all know, we learn and get a little smarter every time. "to"... i guess we become overly conscious abt our grades. so much that we really neglect alot of things. sometimes i wonder when i find out what i;m lacking at, and still die die lazy go change the fact, did the external world play a part in moulding such an attitude in me? just by saying how much is being done for us (other than teaching contextual knowledge) doesn't mean how effective things are. ok ok stop. i realised i'm like going to write an arguement alr. no PEEL la, but still, i got my stand!

such a random post. i seemed to have crapped so much i forgot the purpose of coming here. :(

Forget about the sunshine when it's gone.

byebye.

go: midnightcollision.blogspot.com.

i figured out what's wrong.

i'm so tired. i feel like shutting this thing down. haha, let's not, let's leave it to rot. or maybe just be somewhere to practise typing or something. hahaha, so lame. or maybe just somewhere to fa1 xie4 when i need to. so i somewhat hope i'd never ever have to come here. anywayyyyyyyyyyyy, remind me what i have to do now?

study chem test.

RIGHT,
and i dunno if i can even pass if i study. i think i'm pretty bad at chem this year, no, right now.

got to work harddddddddddddddddd. ):

okay bye :)

ps, i realised that if i dun think, i'd be happier but i can't absorb anything. but then if i think, i'd be unhappier but can absorb like a sponge and remember things. so how? ):

FRIDAY! :D

yessss. feels good to know that i can sleep more tmr. that is, putting homework aside first.

lessons are, as usually _. had compre test today. sian, i dun like lang arts/english leh. maths was quite funny. managed to understand log... at least i could follow lar. and then played with the calculator, making those funny funny emoticons lar. which!, is unlike huishan who make all the sick ones. HAW HAW.

ran a total of 10 rounds today. if we ran the right no. of rounds lar. 4 for pe, 6 for training. and the weather can KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. i was alr perspiring before we started running... so yeah, you get the point. and ziyun ah, container class room and band practice. :X in the right place at the right time lor. throughout the rather miserable day, the only comfort was geog lesson in the library, with air-con :D

training, pt again. i think this is like the worse pt EVER. i bet half is cos of the weather and another half cos of my pe t-shirt which doesn't seem to dry. i feel so old! ahhhh, train abs. train so long alr still so soft ._. super tired, want to sleep all the time, even during training.

lots of stuff to do this term. and i'm not even halfway through. week 4. 4 = si4 = si3 = die. random zzz. got alot of tests.

oh yeah, talked abt quite alot of stuff after training. c girls din come back lor. and there was lightning risk, which is ironic cos like 2 hours ago the weather and everywhere seem like an oven. then spent some time in school lor. sian...

my post is so boring. i wanted to talk abt the past few days but i forgot what really happened lar. oh yeah, was damn touched on wednesday lar. yeah that's all. hahaha.

and i think marit larsen's only a fool is quite nice. the harmonica parts are nice :D  i think the song is quite longggggg ago alr. hahaha, but that's okay, music dun really have expiry dates right.

i want to sleeppppppppppppppppp. i'm starting to think harmonicas are cool too. :D zzz okay bye.